It is after midnight and I lay her in yet another new bed in another new place. Strangers-turned-friends have opened their home up to us, the wanderers, during this quick trip throughout the United States.

As I lay her head on what seems the twentieth different pillow in three weeks it occurs to me that once again she will wake up in a place that is not where she fell asleep. And as soon as I realize this I realize something else: she will wake up happy as long as I do not get out of bed first. I know this to be true after over 2 years of mothering this precious soul. If she can wake up and see my face their next to hers on the pillow, she will not mind the new place.

I am overwhelmed at that kind of trust.

I want that kind of trust.

The last three weeks have been a whirlwind that my publishing team calls “promoting the book.” For me it has been a sanctifying and stretching time of testifying over and over and over again His faithfulness in our lives. A time of noticing the little surprises that He puts in front of me every single day.

I am the Israelites, forgetting so quickly. Just so not wanting to be in this foreign place away from my children, not wanting to be looked at or praised or criticized, I am tempted to grumble, even to worry, even to forget. But I can’t because in front of thousands, it is my turn to testify. And in testifying, I remember. I remember the miracles and I remember all the long way that He has carried us. And as I remember, He continues to surprise and carry still. I share our story. And each time, with each word, I know it a little deeper: God IS who He says He is.

Trustworthy.

And slowly but surely I am learning to trust my Father in the way that my three year old trusts me. Learning to just allow Him to carry me, take me where He wants me and know that I will still wake up in His arms, and in His arms it is safe. Even when I wake up in unfamiliar territory.

In an effort to really sink in deep into His safe and loving arms, I am unplugging. The last three weeks have been a time of being “on”, sharing our story with many and praying and believing that they will be encouraged and God will receive all the glory. And so now it is time to be quiet. Time to listen instead of speaking. Time to trust fully in Him instead of worrying about silly comments on silly articles. Time to turn “off” – both my mind and my computer.

I will be back in Uganda with my girls on Wednesday and we will spend this month enjoying each other, enjoying our Father, and trusting Him to do whatever He wishes with this book and this testimony. He has done big things and we have wonderful stories and I cannot wait to share them with you in November.

He is behind and before. We trust Him. To Him be the glory.

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  1. I have been a silent blog reader and when I saw you had a book out I was so excited. Your writing in the blogs has always touched my heart and now the thought of a book! I ordered the book and picked it up yesterday. I finished it today. Written so beautiful just like you. God has gifted you writing that reaches and touches the heart. I thank the Lord for you and we will continue to keep your family in our prayers. Our family will be helping a child!The book will now go to my husband to read, I hope it touches his heart like it did mine. Your are beautiful in His eyes!
    Stacey
    Colorado

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  2. Just finished reading your book. Wow! It has challenged me, encouraged me, and created a great longing in me to do more. I am a 60 year old mother of 7 adopted children. Three are still at home (15, 14, and 11). When I turned 50 I prayed for a baby, at 51 we got our 3 month old baby daughter and her 4 siblings. After 4 years of court, on May 24, 2006, we finally adopted 4 of the children, and on May 26, 2006, just two days later, our precious baby, Ashley, now 4 died of cancer. My faith was nearly destoyed, but through it may faith grew. Your book was so what I needed to move forward to do some things in Ashley's honor. I am praying for your ministry and believe God is going to grow to grow it beyond anything you can imagine. Blessings. Evelyn Scheiman

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  3. Katie, your book has touched my soul. I devoured it! Though a believer all my life, over the past few months I am finally beginning to understand 'I surrender all', and what it means to live in Him and through Him. So many stories I have loved over the years of Christian heroes, like you, left me wondering… What's wrong with me? What did they have that I don't? I want my life to be used by God like that, but how? Your personal testimony of God's provision and guidance as you trust in Him and daily surrender to His Spirit tells the untold secret!!! It's ALL God, not us! He changes our hearts and our desires to become like His! Thank you, not just for the blazing sacrifice/joyful blessing of your life, but also for telling your story in your words. I needed to hear it straight from the heroes mouth. 🙂

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  4. Katie
    I heard you on the Dave Ramsey show a few days ago and that same day a friend of mine told me she had ordered me your book.I had only read a few pages when I read,
    “The children would run to me with gifts of stones or dirt and I saw myself filthy and broken, offering my life to the God of the universe and begging Him to make it into something beautiful.”
    Those words broke in to my heart at that moment and I began to sob.I wasn't crying softly ! I was laid across my bed sobbing with my heart breaking because of God's wonderous love for me.
    I now have a passion I have not felt in years to reach out and help others. I want to show Christ' love and I will start by supporting your ministry.
    Thank you for being obedient. Thank you for showing others that that's all He is asking us to do.
    I'll be praying for you and all the precious ones in Uganda.

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  5. Katie, today is October 29- I was reading the end of your book and read that a year ago today, you were forced to give up your precious Jane to her mother. My heart ached for you. I will pray for you today as I know how anniversaries are hard days. We had custody of my niece for 4 months as her mother was dealing with her personal issues. DSS decided to give her back and it was so hard. I knew she would have better care and a Christian environment with us. However, 18 months later I can see God is working in the mother's life and and although it was extremely painful, my prayer is that one day we will see a miracle in that situation. I pray that for you too…God loves Jane, her mother, and you .You are a special person with incredible faith- a gift. God bless you!

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  6. Thank you for sharing your time with those in the USA, Katie! As a mother I know how hard it is to leave your babies behind and travel without them. My husband heard you speak at Catalyst in Atlanta and was so inspired by your story. He bought your book, he read it, and has passed it on for me to read! I'm in the middle of your story and I am so humbled by your faith and obedience to Jesus. May your story move many more people to take steps of obedience wherever their mission fields may be. Thank you.

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  7. I just received your book for my birthday on 10/21 and read it in three days!! Today is the 29th, and I was reading about how 10/29/10 was so terrible for you and the girls. My prayers are with you this day, one year later exactly, my sister in the Lord. I prayer that the Lord of all comfort will surround and uphold you this day and that you are once again reminded of the faithfulness of our sweet Jesus! Sandy

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  8. A friend preordered your book for me since we both are adoptive moms. Your story has touched me deeply and I thank you sharing it and mostly for being an example of being faithful to God's call. I run a non profit organization and would love to have our students be part of projects to bless others through your organization. Prayers for you and your precious girls!

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  9. Katie,
    I just finished reading your book. God was glorified! We are starting the adoption process in Uganda. Lord willing maybe we can meet when He deems the right time for us to come to Uganda. Thank you for what you do.
    To Him be the glory,
    Chelsey

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  10. Katie, just finished reading your incredibly inspiring book. I've followed your blog for quite some time and couldn't wait to read your book. The wisdom and spiritual maturity from your young heart is incredible. Thank you for sharing your testimony, His story in your life. Maybe He continue to bless and guide.
    Jocelyn in Missouri

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  11. I am on the 12th chapter of your book and wow, God is using you in Mighty ways for His Kingdom's sake and in my life. I am so thankful for what you do and that you put it out there for others to read, hear, and see. I'm growing and I'm thankful. I am praying for you and your family and ministry team. God bless you all so much!

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  12. Came across your story this morning, and it hit me like a bucket of cold water had been dumped on me unexpectedly. I'm inspired, convicted, and wow'd by the intensity that Christ is shining through your story.

    Know that prayers are being lifted up for you from California.

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  13. I have been reading your blog for several years…(it seems like?!) and I love your story. Because God writes stories so much more beautiful than we could orchestrate. I lost a baby last year and I am adopting from Ethiopia this year, and I just had a baby biologically…I also know firsthand that pain is not something to be taken lightly. It is often just a journey to know the Lord and his promises more intimately…

    My husband and I pray we will be called to work and minister overseas. We are just entering into a ministry position at our church, but hoping that in the next couple of years we will be working overseas…maybe even in Ethiopia.

    Praying for your daughters as I am in the word today…and praying for the people of Maese…

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