I watch the tears roll down her cheeks and am devastated for her. I know she must be crying because of the pain of her burns or because of the pain in her heart at the thought of her husband pushing her into the fire. I place my hand on her shoulder and my eyes beckon her to share.
“My stomach is hurting,” she says, and that’s not what I was expecting, “This is the first time I have eaten this week.”
It’s Thursday.
I pray because I don’t know what else to do.  Sure, I can feed this woman lunch but after a week of an empty stomach that may just hurt more than it helps, and I can’t do much to change her situation, to relieve her of her abusive husband or her job picking scrap metal out of the garbage heap. I can feed her now but she goes home to 3 starving children and a future that seems utterly hopeless. We pray.
I get a middle of the night text from a dear friend who has been more of an encouragement to me than she will ever know. Her mom’s biopsy results have come back and the tumor on her brain is cancerous. I can barely choke out words to say that my heart is so heavy for her, that we will carry this burden with them in prayer. I am blown away by her strength and feel completely un-encouraging. We pray.
The hurt doesn’t stop. A teenager needs his leg amputated because an infection that could have been preventable is now out of control. A 4-year-old’s arm is permanently damaged because his mom didn’t have enough money to have it casted when he broke it a few months ago. My friend carries the unborn child of her late husband but confides in me that she would rather not. 5 children in our program watch their mother fight HIV which is rapidly sucking the life right out of her. Another friend threatens to abandon her children (again) because she just can’t make enough money to make ends meet and she would rather be apart from them than watch them suffer.
We move them into that little house in the back and we ask for miracles.
13 hearts are growing into women under my roof and need more and more of Mom, more and more of His truth. I sit, erase the to-do list from my mind and will myself to be present, to be available. The gate opens again and again and the phone rings and all these people, they just want to know that they are not alone in their hurt, just want to be heard.
So many hearts to tend.
Who is God on the days when love just doesn’t feel like enough?
I have been reading through the book of Revelation. I’ll be honest, even after reading several commentaries and looking up lots of Greek words, there are parts of it that I just can’t quite wrap my mind around. I think this is ok. How marvelous to serve a God who is so much more magnificent than I can even comprehend! What I have noticed though is that through all of it, a few things remain constant regardless of tribulation and destruction.
God is on the throne. All the angels and all elders and all the saints and all the believers are gathered at His feet. And they can’t stop worshiping Him. They can’t stop worshiping Him. Forever.
And so this week life is hard and it is heavy. Because I love so many and I want them to knowHim and I want Him to heal them. I want the hurt to be over, but I know that one day, it will be. And in the mean time I just ask it, I beg it, that we would be people who cannot stop worshiping the Lamb who is worthy. That through the hard and the struggle and the moments that just seem so hopeless we would cling to the hope that He’s already won and our only response would be adoration and praise.
Eyes on Him.
Because when our love is not enough, His was. His is.

After this I looked, and behold, a great multitude that no one could number, from every nation, from all tribes and peoples and languages, standing before the throne and before the Lamb, clothed in white robes with palm branches in their hands, and crying out with a loud voice, “Salvation belongs to our God, who sits on the throne, and to the Lamb!” And the angels were standing around the throne and around the elders and the four living creatures, and they fell on their faces before the throne and worshiped God saying, “Amen! Blessing and glory and wisdom and thanksgiving and honor and power and might be to our God forever and ever! Amen.” –Revelation 5:9-12

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  1. Thank you for this message Katie. I feel similarly and your reminder to focus on the Lamb is exactly what I'm needing to do. All the way around the world from Los Angeles, thank you for continuing your work and your focus on Jesus. And we pray. xo
    Kaysha

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  2. Katie,
    I have been reading your book for about a few months and have literally changed the way I think about my life and my life in God's eyes. I strive to live a life in his perfect will and to follow his direction and commands. I have a huge heart for Africa, but mine is in Tanzania with an orphanage I worked at this summer. I know you're busy but here's a link to my blog, which is also about Africa and orphans and God's love.
    Thanks for all you do for the Kingdom.

    Rachel

    http://60pieces.blogspot.com

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  3. Katie,
    I have been reading your book for about a few months and have literally changed the way I think about my life and my life in God's eyes. I strive to live a life in his perfect will and to follow his direction and commands. I have a huge heart for Africa, but mine is in Tanzania with an orphanage I worked at this summer. I know you're busy but here's a link to my blog, which is also about Africa and orphans and God's love.
    Thanks for all you do for the Kingdom.

    Rachel

    http://60pieces.blogspot.com

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  4. Katie you have inspired me to become a missionary. This summer, I will be traveling to Uganda to work in an Orphanage there. You are such an inspiration to me!

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  5. Katie you have inspired me to become a missionary. This summer, I will be traveling to Uganda to work in an Orphanage there. You are such an inspiration to me!

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  6. Hello Katie,
    I just read your book and have started reading your blog. I'm a 23-year-old missionary in Honduras, and I work primarily with impoverished, orphaned, and abandoned street kids. While I've never met you, reading your book was like finding a friend on the other side of the world. Never before have I “met” someone who I could so identify with as a single woman serving in a country that is so much more my home than the US ever was. Right now, most of my time is spent in a government-run boys' center where I meet boys who, to most, are drug addicts, thieves, and orphans but, to me, are the most precious treasures. Every day I see Jesus in their hungry hearts, and every day, they become more and more like my sons. My heart aches to adopt them in a form that expands beyond desperately crying out to God to rescue my sons to somehow tangibly being their mother and meeting their needs. But, I have to wait on God's timing and direction which often means accepting the present as preparation for the future and learning to suffer alongside others as Jesus must have suffered our pain while on this earth. Reading your blog today in the midst of feeling so much hurt and desperation for my sons was a good reminder–not only that we're not alone but that God truly is in control, and His love is always enough.

    Much love and prayers, my sister in Christ.
    Sarah

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  7. “May the God of hope bring you all the joy and peace as you trust in Him,so that by the power of the Holy Spirit you may abound in hope.” Romans 15:13
    You are all on my heart and in my prayes.

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  8. This makes me realize how much I've been blessed in my life. Those children just tug on my heart every time I hear their stories. God loves each and every one of them like a Father and has a divine plan for their lives. Thank you, Katie, for being that love to them. I just want to hold them in my arms too and tell them how much they matter to me! I'm praying for you Katie.

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  9. Katie, I am half way through your book and I, an avid reader, have never been brought to tears by a book the way I am with every page of your book. I want to take so many lines from the book and frame them and put them where I can be reminded day in day out about the awesomeness of our God that you so eloquently capture in the telling of His amazing work in your life. I cannot thank you enough for having the faith to step out and say “yes” to Him day in and day out. And for having the courage and selflessness to share that with us. You are right – God calls us to the impossible so that we can do it through His grace and power and only through His grace and power. Thank you for touching lives both there in Uganda and here in the States.

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  10. Kutless recently came out with this song. It has been a great encouragement to me. Hopefully I have pasted the youtube correctly for you to listen. If not, the song is 'Even if the Healing Doesn't Come'.

    All for Christ,
    Amy

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  11. Katie you are and inspiration to many! I love Revelation 5 too and look forward to the day when I too will get to participate in that on-going heavenly worship!

    Also, thanks to the photographer who so beautifully has captured the feelings and hearts of these people. A picture is worth a thousand words!

    Peace and prayers

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  12. Thanks for sharing your stories and your heart. We all benefit when others are willing to share what they're learning as they walk with Jesus.

    I have a question for you that I'd like to ask offline. Would you email me at jaby@stanford.edu? Thanks. Janelle

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  13. Hi Katie. I'm Yewon in South Korea.
    I'm 19.
    I read your book 'Kisses from Katie' few days ago. It took me quite a long time to read it because I didn't want to rush through and miss any phrase. My vision is to become a medical doctor and help those in need and bring them to God, just like you are doing so wonderfully. Maybe it's not what God want from me, but even so I'll gladly follow His will. I'll pray for you and Amazima here in S.Korea. As you know, God loves you.

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  14. Hi Katie. I'm Yewon in South Korea.
    I'm 19.
    I read your book 'Kisses from Katie' few days ago. It took me quite a long time to read it because I didn't want to rush through and miss any phrase. My vision is to become a medical doctor and help those in need and bring them to God, just like you are doing so wonderfully. Maybe it's not what God want from me, but even so I'll gladly follow His will. I'll pray for you and Amazima here in S.Korea. As you know, God loves you.

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  15. Katie,
    I am a teacher from Ontario, Canada. Just helped to install a clean water system at the Kawolo hospital in Lugazi this August. This was my first trip to Uganda and like yourself after your first visit, I left my heart there. Thank you for creating “Kisses from Katie!” Many times your words mirrored words I've shared and thought myself. I love reliving the powerful joy that Uganda brings through your pages. I am heading back in August 2013 to see the people who now have my heart. I now have a new philosophy to live by, “Be better…Do more….Give more.”

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  16. Katie,
    I am a teacher from Ontario, Canada. Just helped to install a clean water system at the Kawolo hospital in Lugazi this August. This was my first trip to Uganda and like yourself after your first visit, I left my heart there. Thank you for creating “Kisses from Katie!” Many times your words mirrored words I've shared and thought myself. I love reliving the powerful joy that Uganda brings through your pages. I am heading back in August 2013 to see the people who now have my heart. I now have a new philosophy to live by, “Be better…Do more….Give more.”
    Kyla

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  17. You are so precious to us….praying for His hand to sustain you as you pour your self out as HIS hands, His feet, on behalf of the broken, hopeless, and hopeless. Your great love for them allows them to see Jesus….and He is enough

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  18. My sister and friend Katie,
    🙂 I have to smile at that thought, to know you are my sister though you don't know me yet…
    I relate so much to the aching passion you have to see hurts healed, hope given. I believe, i KNOW, we are kindred spirits…
    I posted on fb recently something that gave me hope in the midst of so much today that looks discouraging:
    “You know, as I look at posts and see the heart of many of my friends and many of us who hardly even know each other, I am touched at the kindness and good intentions of many. Many also diligently seek to obey and honor God, each in our imperfect ways.

    That is astounding in the time in which we live. It brings me to tears. There is hope, and a foundation of faith in this country that can lead to the most powerful revival the world has ever known!
    Be part of it! Please, seek God, repent of sin and distraction as I have been doing much the past months and even years. The Lord can use you and me to transform our nation and world! Lets start in our own life. Our own home, committed to SERVE the King rather than ourselves…
    I love you my fellow believers, and pity those who don't know the Lord and His love.”

    I'm WILD 4 God, and I want to be poured out for Him. I love how you have found ways to be poured out. Love and peace to you as you see the Father move. I pray I could serve as you do in many ways and more one day. You're in my prayers. ❤

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  19. I am so encouraged by reading your blog! I think that you are so amazing! I just recently read your book and respect you for everything you do. Reading your book and your blog has also brought me closer to God. I went on a missions trip to Nicaragua this summer for a week and left in tears, although I was ready to be back to the comfort of my home. I've felt God tugging at my heart for a while, and when I read your book, I knew that he was calling me to also, like you, move to Uganda when I'm older. I'm only 12 years old, but I really feel him calling me to move there when I'm older. May God continue to work through you in Uganda!

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  20. Hello Katie, I just finished your book and had to look up your blog and the Amazima website. I will be involved from now on, thank you. My book club chose this book to read and we will be meeting tomorrow night. I can't wait to see the ways God has moved all of us through your book, through your story and through your love. God is mighty and He has captured you for the people of Uganda. May your brothers and sisters in Christ in our beautiful country of America come full force in partnership with you. God Bless You and your precious family as you serve others for the One who loves us all.

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  21. You are amazing. Glory to God for the Love He placed on you. I thank God for letting me come to your blog through stumble upon. I pray that he continues to bless you and all those who follow your blog. How do I find out your address and a list of items our ministry could help with?

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  22. Dear Sweet Katie, Since the day I read your book one year ago my heart has been beating with yours. I too have a heart for hurting people. When I am feeling weary I go to your blog and receive encouragement. You are a Mighty warrior for Christ. He is faithful. Hugs

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  23. Katie.. thank you for sharing your heart, your struggles, your faith in an ever present God. Your book was just what I needed this year as I'm going to be a fresh out of highschool missionary in the coming year. Your struggles and other peoples misunderstanding of your heart and love for a people of a different country really reached to the center of my heart. People will not understand. They will be confused at what we see that they can't. But we can pray and continue to live an example of the One who called us for His own pleasure. May God bless you, watch over you and your precious girls, your work He has sent you, and your life forever. Amen!

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  24. Thank you Katie for sharing your heart, struggles, and victories with the world. I pray that the Lord will continue to bless you and your precious family, encircle His ministry in Uganda with His protection and love. May His good and precious will be done on earth as it is in heaven. I am almost finished with highschool, and then it is off to Central America for missions work. I believe it is my life's calling from God, and I am so encouraged to know that someone else feels the way I do. I can relate to people who don't understand why someone so young would want to give up their 'future' to live in poverty and help others. The truth is, and I know that you know this so well, is that we are not truly giving up our future, we are discovering that God has a future way better than we could ever imagine for us. From one sister in Christ to another, SHALOM!

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  25. Thank you Katie for sharing your heart, struggles, and victories with the world. I pray that the Lord will continue to bless you and your precious family, encircle His ministry in Uganda with His protection and love. May His good and precious will be done on earth as it is in heaven. I am almost finished with highschool, and then it is off to Central America for missions work. I believe it is my life's calling from God, and I am so encouraged to know that someone else feels the way I do. I can relate to people who don't understand why someone so young would want to give up their 'future' to live in poverty and help others. The truth is, and I know that you know this so well, is that we are not truly giving up our future, we are discovering that God has a future way better than we could ever imagine for us. From one sister in Christ to another, SHALOM!

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  26. In the middle of reading your book, your work is amazing. May God bless your heart.

    It was my dream to go to Africa and bring a little bit love, a little bit help to even one child. We cant change the world, but we can change one child's life. We can let one child see love from us and that love is gonna change his/her life. You are an angel.

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  27. I'm 17, and I read your book, Kisses from Katie, as an independent reading project for school. I just wanted to let you know that I LOVE what God is doing through you in Uganda. It encourages me to go forth in my own community and spread His word through works of love and the sharing of my faith. Your words truly are an inspiration, and I pray that God blesses you, your little girls, and your ministry. Not only is God using you as a vessel for His power to show through in Uganda, but He does so in every person that reads about your life and your story. God bless you! 🙂

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  28. Blessed Katie,

    Thank you for being a light in the darkness. This is one of the very few places in the blogosphere that I ever visit these days, and that, rarely. But sometimes late at night I long for a dose of the raw reality of love that you are living and expressing here…to keep my heart grateful and grounded and longing for MORE Jesus in me. You humble and inspire me, and I pray that you will continue to be consumed by the desire to love God, and to love others, for love of God. I wanted to share this website, in case you might find here some life-giving insight into the Book of Revelation. http://www.fisheaters.com/revelation.html

    May God grant you continued strength, trust and perseverance in “running the race” of faith.

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  29. It's amazing how God is working through you. I just want to let you know I'm praying for the work in Uganda. Your post made me think of 2 Cor. 12:9-10!

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  30. Sweet Katie,
    Everyday I am moved, encouraged, inspired, and convicted by your work in Uganda to keep giving more to God and the work of His Kingdom. Your life is a testimony of what it really looks like to be a Christian. He has used your book and your blog to show me how He wants ME to live… Not as a comfortable American college girl, but as a humble servant who loves the least of these with radical self-abandon. Thank you for obeying our Lord, so that I can learn how to obey Him.

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  31. Dear Katie,

    I sent a blog comment on behalf of the participants an Amazing Place Houston. We are a facility for people with mild to moderate dementia and Alzheimer's. We have been reading your book for about a month and a half now. The participants wanted to communicate with you and I was trying to show them how a blog works. We created a gmail specifically for Amazing Place. Our blog did not post and I'm afraid it's because your site didn't accept our email name. This communication is important to them so please let us know what to do to contact you properly. God bless you and your amazing work.

    Donna Field
    Participant Program Manager
    Amazing Place Houston
    dfield@amazingplacehouston.org

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  32. Your amazing and God will take all of the burden and worry up on his shoulders when we ask him to. The Lord our God is absolutely amazing and loves us to death. I am praying for you and Uganda which I call Katie's family but also God's house.

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