I know, I kind of abandoned ship here for a while. I didn’t mean to leave you hanging.
Katherine’s death has taken me a lot longer to process than most things usually do. Maybe because it felt like a big final loss after a season of lots and lots of losses. Maybe because I have a tendency to want to see redemption here and now, to want to tie it all up in a neat little package, even though I know that His ways are not my ways and a “good ending” is not always seen in this lifetime. Maybe because I feel that I should have some kind of understanding before I bear my heart to the world.
Friends, God is still good and God is still working. In a season of much loss and much hardship, He whispers, “Look how far I have carried you. And still I go before you.”
But trying to tell you where I am at right now feels a little like trying to serve grape juice as wine. Words on a screen feel like a cheap substitute, unable to capture the grace and the mercy that God has shown us during this season, unable to explain the nearness I have felt and the new ways the Father is revealing His heart to me.
There is joy in this place. There is peace in this place. It is Jesus. He is very near to us. And I am writing it all down in hopes that one day soon I will again feel that it is time to share it with the world.
But for now there is something very sacred about sharing my heart with Jesus only.
Thank you for those of you who continue to check in on us and who continue to pray. That you would sit before the Father on our behalf means more to me than I could ever tell you here.
Betty is still living with us. She is a constant reminder of God’s love to me. Health wise, she is recovering very slowly, but she knows the Savior and she is a fighter. She is full of joy, and it is our joy to care for her.
Simon and his grandmother are also living with us while Simon gains weight and gets ready for another surgery. Simon’s grandmother is darling and extremely devoted to caring for Simon. It is always a bit stretching to share our home with new people for an extended period of time, but I am thankful for the way the Father grows us in community, the way that He can turn strangers into family.
The girls are doing phenomenally well, growing like weeds and doing great in school. Watching them grow in their knowledge and love of the Lord is by far the best part of parenting. Without a doubt, parenting reveals to me more of my own depravity and more of my loving Father’s heart than anything else ever could. I am humbled and grateful.
To all who ask the question, “Are you ok?” The answer is a resounding “Yes.” I am more in love with my Savior than I have ever been before. I pray that each day my love for Him would only grow. He is good to us, friends, and He doesn’t ever, ever leave.
Thank you, again for your prayers and your love. I will be back soon. You can continue to keep up with Amazima here in the mean time.

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  1. Psalms 139 1-5 (but really the whole chapter)
    O LORD, You have searched me and known me. You know when I sit down and when I rise up; You understand my thought from afar. You scrutinize my path and my lying down, and are intimately acquainted with all my ways. Even before there is a word on my tongue, behold, O LORD, You know it all. you have enclosed me behind and before, and laid Your hand upon me.

    The Lord is surrounding you, Katie. In your grief, in your tears, in your joys–He is surrounding you. In all of the languages that there are on this earth, I know of no words or combination of words that will bring peace, or comfort, or healing by merely saying or writing them. I think any words that do must be invaded by God's presence–they have to be. To experience peace that passes all understanding when your heart feels as if it is in shreds is witnessing a miracle from God's hand. It is holy ground–that peace for it only comes from the Father. I will pray for you and your family. I am thankful that you have chosen to turn to the Father in this grief. I thank you for your words of honesty and pain and truth. I thank you. I wish I knew better words. I wish I could speak words that would heal, but I do not know these words, so I will pray.

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  2. Katie- I just finished reading your book and as a Women of God and a person who also is in love with the Ugandan people I am blown away by how GOD is using you. Thank you for sharing your message it gives me greater courage to serve unceasingly! Blessings

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  3. Katie~

    My 16 year old daughter and I are reading your book Kisses From Katie aloud to each other. Thank you for sharing your journey. What a blessing it is to “be a part” of God's work there in Uganda by praying for you and your girls by name and the many that you serve. It sounds like there have been some tough weeks and months lately. Know that you continue to be in our prayers.

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  4. Grace and Peace! When I first saw your book I was drawn by your name Katie Davis, because I have a daughter, Katy Davis… then as I read what the book was all about I was amazed again…. I have a daughter and son in law who are missionaries in the ME and Nth of Africa… everything seemed to connect, and I couldn't wait to read the book. What an amazing ministry. I would love to be involved in some way. May GOD, our loving Father, bless you and bless you as you bless others. Maureen Davis

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  5. Katie, I just learned about you this morning after talking with a friend about my new gift/opportunity of being able to sponsor and mentor a 16-year old girl in Kenya to continue her high school education (and help with whatever she wants to do afterwards). Your blog and ministry is amazing. I hope to visit her in Kenya within a year. May the Lord bless you mightily every day. Brad in Dallas.

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  6. Katie, I am blown away by your blog and book about Christ's work and I love that you love what you do. This has opened my eyes in so many ways to Jesus's calling for my life. There are so many things that I could say to you but I want you to know that I'm praying for you and your beautiful, amazing family and all the people that you are loving on in Uganda. Much, much love and many prayers from the U.S., Emma

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